Tears?

I believe out of all three letters I have received so far, I've cried during all three.
It's those moments where they say something and as your reading it you're imagining them saying it as they're sitting next to you. It hurts, but there are completely happy tears :) Painful, happy tears.

He says it's cold in the Squad Bay (where they sleep), but he likes his rackmate and the guy beside him.
They saw the sunrise during a 3 mile morning hike which apparently was beautiful (i can only imagine.)
He likes most of his drill instructors and explained their jobs.
However he's already hurt himself pulling a hamstring, and he's had some heat exhaustion, but he doesn't want to go to medical for fear of being dropped, which I understand.
So I'm just supporting him.
I've sent him a photo of myself and a little comic photo. Something to lighten the mood if he's down.
It's so difficult to know when somethings wrong through a letter. And when it takes ten days for a response... it's understandable why.

Yes, I said 10 days. From the time I send a letter, to the time I receive a letter obtaining to things mentioned in said first letter, the corresponding letters are about 10 days apart.
And yes, it is confusing. I've began to copy my own letters so I remember what I've said in which letter. That way I can look at mine as I read his, and I can mostly avoid repeating myself.
I can get a letter from him but it may have nothing to do with anything I've said that week. And everything to do with what I've said the previous week.

Oh yea, and I miss him.

...my side feels empty.

LETTERS!!!

I got a letter Sunday night when I got home from the week :)
I let out a little scream.
However upon reading it silently in my room, I began to cry. It hurt so bad. And made me smile so much.
It didn't make sense how anything could ever make you smile in happiness and cry in sadness all at once.

I'm proud to say he likes it there :)
It's the physical that he has trouble with mostly. Not the mental.
But he misses me :)
And I miss him :)

So I guess all that's left to do is wait.

Get Used to It

I'm starting to believe the hardest part about being the significant other to a man in the Military is this:
You have to learn how to get used to being with out them.
And doesn't that feel so shameful? Having to get used to being without the one you love.

But it must be done. Because you can't spend everyday for the next time you meet. Because, at least until you're married, every time you meet will end in a time he leaves. A week here and there, but it always ends in a "see you soon then".

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I have his address now :)
I've already sent him 2 letters although I know I won't be getting one for a while yet.
I leave tomorrow for a week long trip with my church youth group, so if I do get a letter I won't get to open it until next Sunday, which makes me pretty sad. Oh well.
I've been following the online Training Matrix to see what he's up too, asking him if it's accurate or not.

Oh and I miss him.
So much.
But like I said, I guess the hardest part is knowing that there is no end, you just have to get used to it.

How do you get used to being without the one you are in love with?

"Semper Fi, Till I Die"

"Sometimes it's hard because I wish I could kiss you whenever I want".

This will be me soon enough

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