Friday, March 11, 2011


...hasn't it just been forever :)

So I wanted to tell you all what has been up these last several months. It's been rough but always worth it. Thick and thin.

Zack went to SOI (the School of Infantry) after bootcamp, into ITB (Infantry Training Battalion) since he'll be in infantry in a few years. However he has a special contract which I cant get into too much detail about but needless to say he went to another school after that, and has just graduated a few weeks ago :)

So what's next?
Well I'm getting ready to handle deployments. Yup. He'll be out of the country before I even get out of my junior year of highschool. Before my prom, and birthday. But didn't we just know this was gonna happen, haha.
So I'm taking it easy. I'm doing all I can to stand strong for him. I'm learning what should be said and what just isn't worth saying. Girl's I will tell you it's not right to hide anything from your man but there is a difference between hiding something, and just knowing when something isn't worth saying.
  That's something you discover in a military relationship. It's not just a long distance relationship. It's way more than that.
It's distance. Fear. Life. Death. Mood swings. Trust. Faith. Anger. Hope. There's a lot.
And from that you learn not just "when not to fight", but that it's just not worth it.

So about two years until he's in infantry, and he already has 2 deployments scheduled. To be quite honest I've already bought the yellow ribbon. Everyday that he's in another country I plan on having some form of yellow ribbon in my hair. By the time he's ready to reenlist I'll probably have worn a few years worth of ribbon ;)

So all in all I guess not much is going on. It seems like longer than it is. He may be home for Easter!
I'm not gonna go into all the types of arguments and spats we go into, but mostly because it's too much. I will later, not detailed, but some stuff to ponder. Things that might be affecting your Marine too.

Anyways, hope you all are well! I'm praying for you and your families! And for all those in Japan, especially our military.

God bless!

Friday, December 3, 2010

Alright girls...

I felt it was time for this, I'm sorry it's not a picture, and it may not be pleasant or what you want to hear but I think it's important so try not to ignore it.

I've been seeing many rants and complaints lately from Marine Girlfriend's, about other girls with civilian boyfriends. They usually go on like:
"You have no idea what missing someone is like"
"You have no clue what true love really means"
"You don't know what it is to be strong, to go spend so much time alone"
"boo hoo. You can't see him for a few days." 

Girl's I have to say, I'm slightly disappointed. There's some love missing in us as well.

Maybe they haven't been through what we've been through, or what we're about to go through. They don't have someone directly risking their lives for a country of strangers. But that doesn't mean they don't have the right to miss their boyfriends, or complain about missing their boyfriends who they haven't seen in a day or two.

We of all girls should know, the second he lets go, our hearts ache.

Why should we think we have more right to complain than they do? Because we will be apart from our men longer? Girls, if anything, we may have less to complain about and more to be thankful for. A strong relationship. A true love that fears none. True, physical as well as metal and emotional sacrifice.

 Instead of complaining about their complaints, why can't we be happy for them? They have a man they're in love with as well, that they get time with. They've been put in two different environments.

When your man is here, do you miss him every second, hour, and day you can't have together?
And when he's not here, don't you miss every day, week, and month?

Friday, September 17, 2010

Almost there

A few more hours until he is officially a United States Marine.

How do i feel: Amazing.

I'm not sure I've ever been more proud of anyone in my entire life, as much as I am proud of him.
It's been a long 12 weeks. But it's shorter than it seems. I lie not.
The worst part is something that re-occurs very often through these three months, and that is the realization that you may be seeing him soon, but he's not coming back. Once he leaves, that's him leaving. When he comes home it's just for a visit. A 10 day leave. A 2 day leave. He's gone now.

And that is where the importance of living day by day comes in.
You can't look at everything at once. You can't. You'll kill yourself.
Little pieces at a time. That's the way.

As for me. I'm out of my one week countdown. Today I'm at 5 days :) I leave in 3 :D
He is so excited to see me that sometimes I feel as if he doesn't understand what's really going on.
OR he's already moved passed it and is just waiting for the next moment.

Which is what you have to do. Wait for that next moment. Live for the next hug. Live to love.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Monday, August 16, 2010

If you're in love with him, it will all work out.